I am so angry. Not so much angry as envious. Chris and Matt left today for San Diego. I can't believe those bastards would go without me. Because let's face it, I am one hundred times cooler than Chris, and I know Matt much better than him. But after they go to Tijuana, and go cavorting around for a week they'll be the bestest buddies. All I know is that they better bring me back something. At least a shotglass. I seriously need to get some friends that don't go to my school. If I only I were still friends with the ex :/
I have a new love of my life. It's called the Spiderman 2 soundtrack. It's just so damn good. I guess it will tide me over for a week or so. I hope I can still go see Underoath, since my concert buddies have left me. And everyone has seen Spiderman 2 and I haven't! This is getting ridiculous.
Tata's in town now. Fourth of July is tomorrow. I think I had my old blog this time last year.
Had a dream that my cat was actually a man who could turn into my cat. He looked like a hybrid of Hal Sparks and Adrien Brody. Oh man, he was so attractive. If only I could find someone like Hal Sparks, who's intelligent, witty, funny and attractive. Is it wrong that I had relations with this "animagus" in my dream? I still can't look at my cat yet. It's just too soon.
On a heavier note I had a breakdown last night. I don't know what sparked it. Ok, that's a lie. I do know what sparked it but unforunately I can not and do not want to discuss it. Emmy was there to rescue me once again. If I didn't have her I don't know where I would be.
I just talked to Meg, and I played psychiatrist. I really really hate to see my friends go through emotional pain. I just wish I could suffer for them, seeing my friends miserable is the worst thing in the world to me. I'd rather be in excrusiating pain then have one of my friends have to deal with the pain and suffering or relationships. No matter how much I see my friends suffer, I still want a relationship. But I suffer silently in my head, because as it turns out, the one relationship worth while to me I can't have. And it hurts so bad.
