5.23.2004

Maturity Bred Through Chaos.

I've never felt so much like a woman, as when I was holding a seven month old baby in my arms and feeding it.

I've got two day's worth of babbling to do..so I shall get on with it. Friday, after an akward day of friendships and miscommunication Lauren and I took off after sixth to our usual. "Our usual", for the past week, has been scrounging around finding what little change we have to get our fifty-nine cent soda's over at McDonalds. After that we came to my house and cleaned the shit out of it. We cleaned the bathroom, my room, the livingroom, the bunny cage and did the laundry - all within a meer hour and a half! And it wasn't a "half-assed" job either, it was a superb job if I do say so myself ;D. After cleaning my house we went to Lauren's where we dusted, cleaned her room, and did a few other monotonous jobs. After careful discussion we decided to forgo seeing Shrek 2 untill Saturday, which was actually yesterday. We went to the powderpuff game instead, after Lauren did my makeup and hair as Lauren said, and I quote, " Total Britney." You can imagine how estatic I was that I was being compared to Britney Spears. But we went to the Powder Puff game, it was blew. But seeing my baby daddy in a cheerleading outfit, and seeing Jay in a cute little skirt was worth the two dollars to get in. Lauren and I were getting thirsty so we decided to bounce and go to Sonic. On our way out we ran into Torrence, and she was babbling on about Eric. And she was telling us Eric was comming(oh the joy, oh the rapture.) We started discussing how sprung Katie was on Eric and we laughed. We went to Sonic and then went to Wienershnitzle. Lauren spend the night and so on so forth. I have more details but I am just too burned out to talk about them. But I was trying to feed Lauren a corn dog and as she was reaching to get it, some really cute college boys pulled up right next to us while she was sticking a corn dog in her mouth. She was so mortified she almost ran the red light. It was so funny we must have been laughing for ten mintutes straight. Nothing like a corndog in your mouth to make the night more interesting ;D.

Yesterday was my brother's 8th birthday, and Lauren and I got to got watch about five eight year olds running around. Ugh..I'm not feeling too good. I'll finish this post later.
[EDIT] So after running around at Chuck E Cheese's all day we went to see Shrek 2. All I have to say is, that shit was fucking funny. "Yup we got a about an ounce of..yup this is catnip." "That's not mine." Funny shit - everyone needs to see it! Best money you can spend on a date guareenteed. My mum dropped me off at Mr. Biron's house so I could babysit. She (the baby - Olivia) is an absolute doll. She was a tad fussy, but a sweetie none-the-less. I had to feed her, bathe her and put her down to bed. I loved having a baby around. It made me feel like a real woman, which is a stretch for me. I'm not exactly the most feminine thing ever, but I'm not exactly butch. But just holding a baby and just knowing - that odd type of women's intuition I guess, was just what I needed. It just makes you calm. Sorry feminists, but it doesn't matter, when you have a baby in your arms you just know. It made me want to already have a family, but then I shook myself from an illusion. I'll never have the white picket fences and a dream husband. At least the one I want now I can't have and it makes it all that much more depressing. I made twenty dollars for just watching her from 6:30 to 9:00. I think that's damn good. So now I have thirty dollars to spend on drugs and alcohol. You know, I'm beginning to think I may have a problem..[/EDIT]

Oh! and take that HGG!! I may not do the actual drugs but I do know a lot about them!

The Substance : methamphetamine, meth, crystal meth, speed, ice, crank, tweek / tweak, glass, uppers, yaba, shabu shabu
The Experience : tweaking

Methamphetamine use generally increases the heart rate, blood pressure, body temperature, and rate of breathing of the user. Chronic use can lead to what is called 'Amphetamine Psychosis', resulting in paranoia, auditory and visual hallucinations, self-absorption, irritability, aggressive and erratic behavior, and picking at the skin. This can be magnified by lack of sleep which often accompanies heavy use of meth. Methamphetamine is an anorexant, meaning it causes most people to lose interest in food. This is considered a benefit for many light users, but in regular or heavy users can lead to malnutrition. Methamphetamine is also believed to be neurotoxic.


Thank you Erowid!!! I think I'm going to become a chemist, just so I can make billions of dollars in illegal drug selling and distributing!

Listening : The Starting Line - A Goodnight's Sleep
Reading : Erowid.org - My drug resource.
Mood : Queezy ;/ |


K snuck under the mistletoe at 12:46:00 PM

merry christmaukka!

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