Sometimes when I'm awake
I can't tell if I'm still dreaming
There's so much here at stake
When every moment is just fleeting
Sometimes when I'm awake
I can't tell if I'm still dreaming
Is it worse when you know you are doing wrong and you still do it? Or is it just as bad to do terrible things to others and not know it? Obviously I am still recooperating from an interesting week. I want to expell my feelings onto this website, but the words get stuck in my throat or get cramped in my fingers. My mind wanders in and out of daydreams and make believe...all wishing the life I was living wasn't. In the daytime, I am a confident, carefree person just looking to bring the fun in. In the nighttime, I am a depressed, lonely child, crying for forgiveness and answers. Who am I really? Why do I dwell on such things? Why am I two-faced?
Every time I get near your field of gravity
You look so sad to me tell how could that be?
ah- ah he said things I obsess
I would never confess
ah- ah I told her don't dwell
That will leave you in hell
Sometimes things that you're scorned for
You should be adored for
But like I told him don't dwell
I know my love that I look dilapidated
But are you glad I made it?
Can you tell me that much
ah-ah Why are you surprised
I don't take my own advice?
ah-ah she told me don't dwell
That will leave you in hell
Sometimes I need reminding
Regret is so blinding
But like I told me don't dwell
Everything is a choice
Go ahead raise your voice
Might as well forgive your self
That means more than someone else
Set you free break the shell
To your demons farewell
(Ooh na na na na) I tell you don't dwell
Maybe I shouldn't dwell on the past. The past is the past..and I can't change it. I can learn from it or run from it. If it be one thing I learned from The Lion King it's that. But I desperately want resolution, I can taste it. I yearn and desire it..and yet I am denied. Maybe I am all drama and all talk. But I can't help what I feel. Why should I be punished for your mistakes? Why must I be put through hell because you're not man enough to face your own demons? I'm punished everynight, reliving those words in my head, tortured by the tears that stain my face..and forced to bare this broken heart as I walk across your view with your denied eyes. I will never understand you when will I stop trying? I mean it's just not how I planned to spend my time til' dying...
It's one thing to make the
Same mistake twice
Another thing to make it
All of your life
It's one thing to make the
Same mistake twice
Another thing to make it
All of your life
The more you strengthen your denial
The more you turn to your desire
Appetite fight you'll beat it yet
By hook or by crook on that I would bet
Just hang on in there
Lost in a barrel of wine and whining
Snared in a trap of your own designing
Don't be so sure
Nobody knows when it will end
Don't be so sure
Wouldn't I speak up if I'm a true friend ?
Just hang on in there
I don't want to break down anymore. I can see through the both of us, it's an issue over trust and you keep blaming me. I tried to talk about what is really wrong. And I talk too much to myself. It's killing me to watch you leave me. I see that look of discontent. Goodbye, lay the blame on luck. And now all that is left of a broken relationship is the pain, and lucky me - I get it all.
Listening : Brand New - Am I Wrong
Mood : Hopeless |
