I'm alone. Well in the sense I am the only one up, and I'm the only one in the house who knows I'm home. I should be out partying or something, but twas not ment to be. I'm afraid God or whatever that is out there is going to take the only good thing in my life right now away from me. Im sitting here, still in the dress. Im holding the flower arrangement Don Paul made for me, and I'm just smelling it over and over. I'm exahusted and I just want to fall over. But for some strange reason I can't lay down. I can't not think about the only good thing in my life. I am so scared God is going to take him away and just leave me here alone again. I left every light on in the house to help make me feel safe. But I don't think I've ever felt as safe than when I was just resting my head on his head and wrapped my arms around his. I felt safe. Like no one could touch me. It was the best feeling in the world. I've pissed so many people off today, I've 'dissapointed' many of my 'friends' as well. But I've completely changed everything about myself. I don't care if anyone was dissapointed that I did anything with him or did drugs with him. The truth is why should any of you care now, when you didn't care then? He is the safest thing I've ever known. I feel so comfortable and so serene, I hate being away. He means so much to me, and I hope he knows that. If he's reading this, which I think he might, I just want to make it clear how much he really does mean to me. I'm not sure if he feels the same way, but I love having someone around who gets me. Please God don't take him away.
Whenever I'm alone with you,
you make me feel
Like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you,
you make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you,
you make me feel like I am fun again
However far away,
I will always love you,
However long I stay,
I will always love you,
Whatever words I say,
I will always love you,
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you,
You make me feel like I am free again,
Whenever I'm alone with you,
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away, I will always love you.
Whatever words I say,
I will always love you,
