I had a fight with Seth today. It wasn't your normal scream yell type of fight, nor was it a physical one. Since this is the first fight we've had, I do not know how to exactly fight with him. Others you can figure out right away how to argue with, but I hadn't needed a reason to figure it out before this week. This entire week I've been walking on eggshells around him. He blames it all on his lack of trust for me since the infamous "joke". "And, of course when you discover something like that it's like discovering a tooth with the filling missing. You can never leave it alone. You have to probe it, work around it, push on it, think about it, not because it's enjoyable but because it's on your mind. And the more you probe and push on this subject of maintenance the more irritated he gets, and of course that makes me want to probe and push all the more. Not deliberately to irritate him but because the irritation seems symptomatic of something deeper, something under the surface that isn't immediately apparent."
Stephen came over yesterday and helped me with my math. He was a big help, it's weird because I actually learned. I haven't done that in a long time. I thought I forgot how to tell you the truth. I made him grilled cheese sandwiches, pizza and other things. He stayed over until...almost 10:00. I've never had more fun doing math. I'm begininng to think Janese was correct about something. I can't say what it is exactly, because many people read this blog, and I can just imagine how that would go over. But I am about to do something so horrible, so mean and so terrible. I don't even feel bad about doing it. But this is going to take a portion of my cunning...no..all my cunning.
Listening :Lostprophets - The Fake Sound Of Progress
Reading : Zen and The Art Of Motorcycle Maintenance |
