Sometimes I'm ashamed of what I write about in this blog. I look at it and go "God, I wonder how many people I hurt by just reading this." or "I hope they don't become paranoid around me. " I also think to myself about all the awful things I've done to people in my life. I lie, cheat, steal, use, manipulate, scam, plot against, decive, intimidate, humiliate and deteriorate people. I wonder if the people I do this to realize what I am doing to them by reading this. Then I think to myself, Why would I keep on writing if I didn't? Sometimes I also wonder if I am indeed crazy. And I am ashamed.
