I was walking around after seventh period, trying to find Katie to no avail. Hans decided to chat it up with me for a bit. Hans left and I suddent found myself with an arm around my waist. I quickly turned around to see who the hell it was, and it was..well for the sake of his and my privacy I will use a codename. Grinning. Yes a horrible name but it's what I'm going to use. Well Grinning and I were just walking and talking, bullshiting ect. I had left my cupcake tupperware in Mr. Kunasek's class so I had to run up there before he left and Grinning decided to follow me up there. After that I went to the front of the school to see if my ride was there. It wasn't. He asked me if I wanted to use his cellphone and I said "PLEASE!". On our walk to his locker we saw everyone holding hands, and I do mean everyone - including the lesbian couple at school. We almost started to hold hands but I quickly refrained from grabbing his. For some reason it just felt like the right thing to do. We've always had this weird type of relationship where we both thought eachother were cute, but he had a crush on my friend and I always had a thing for someone else. Nothing really there. But for some reason it just felt..right? I don't know. Then he walked me to the back gate for my ride and when he had to leave for an afterschool thing we almost kissed. It was really akward. I don't even like him, he's kind of cute, but nothing really emotionally liking. But damn, it sure seemed like the right thing to do. Crazy. Crazy crazy shit.
Recently I have been bombarded by everyone's sexual exploits. One of my friends lost her virginity and another gave a guy head for the first time. Even though I like them to tell me what they are doing, and who and so on, it's not very comfortable, I don't know why. Now there are rumors going around school about Katie being three months preggers. Yeah, okay everyone. Dumbasses who start these rumors. I don't know whether to be disgusted by everyone's sex lives or be envious. I think I am both. But damn, I've known these people forever and now they are off doing people and blowing people. It's just really shocking. You could have stuck an electric eel down my pants and I would have been more comfortable than reading those notes and hearing about the 'blow-by-blow" accounts. *shudder*
