Went to Megan's birthday party. It was decent. There was booze, beer, weed. But my ass was to be home at 11:30, so Kristyn could not partake in anything - and to tell you the truth I didn't want to. As soon as I got in the door Meg handed me a beer. I took one drink, and I felt like I was going to throw up everything in my stomach. I hate beer anyway, but the bud light had left a bad taste in my mouth that was reminicent of puke. I declined the rest of the beer and gave it to a piss drunk Katie. Katie was wasted before I was even there, and then decided to break our pact, and toke the pipe. It wouldn't have been a big deal if Katie hadn't promised me on her Grandma's grave and all, but I didn't toke. I didn't do anything but inhale the excess of the profoundly cheap weed. Now maybe it's because I haven't drank in over two months, and I'm not use to drinking..but I just didn't want to ingest the alcohol. Perhaps this is a good thing. I took a swig of Southern Comfort, which I must say is quite.. FUCKING DISGUSTING. I honestly don't know how Amanda could drink this stuff...and this is comming from the hard liquor conninisiour(somebody please correct the spelling on this..), but Southern Comfort it quite possible the worst drink next to beer. But hey, I may not be an alcoholic, I resisted drinking,..who knew? That has got to be a plus.
I mostly chilled with what little guys there were. Doug was there tonight, damn that boy is good looking. If he hadn't have got Michelle Cunningham in the ass, I'd probablly try to nail him. Katie hooked up with this guy David, one of Matt's friends. No offense, he is nice, but I'd never kiss him on the cheek. Katie, on the other hand, probablly gave him a BJ. Matt and I found Katie and David steaming up the windows in Matt's truck. It was quite a sight seeing Katie freak out as we caught her with her shirt off. And the best part was, that the guy she hooked up with, is I believe Chelsi's ex-boyfriend. Ain't that some shit?
My Grandpa died this morning. Is it selfish that I went to a party in my mother's absence? Is it wrong to wonder what is going to happen to your summers in Malibu now that Grandma is leaving because she has no Grandpa? Is it dispicable to want to hook up with a guy, because you have no self esteem? I don't really know the answers to these questions. I finished As I Lay Dying...I think it was pretty good. Not the best book I've ever read but interesting.
I helped Janese make a blog. Check it out athere. Meg told me to call her this week, so Me, Her and Ash could chill. Sounds good to me. Ash wants to hook me up with the SG and make me take him to Prom. I tried to commit suicide again this morning. I hate that time of the month, it makes you do crazy things..like take waay to many anti-depressents...and listen to suicide music. Beware of me.
