I don't really have time to post, I don't really have time for anything..and yet I have all the time in the world on my hands. Perhaps it's the feeling of being trapped, and not just within my own mind anymore, I am used to that, but being trapped behind stucko and wood is not my sort of thing. I feel like a prisoner in my own home. You might as well put a little black box around my ankle and call me a convict. All of this is complete bullshit, I am stuck at home, whilst Katie gets to go Cosmic bowling with Lauren. It's all a bunch of bullshit. All of it. This whole world is bullshit. God help my kids if ever and when I have them, because I'm either going to care WAY too much, or way too little. I just want to get away from all this, away from restrictions, away from family. Away from reality. Is that so much to ask?
The funny thing is, is that my mum thinks Amanda is going to go buck wild as soon as she gets her freedom because of the constant contraints of her parents..and yet, my mum thinks she's punishing me won't do the same. Sorry mum, but next chance I get, I'm going to party with my friends..and if you are reading this, which I'm almost certain you're not, but I don't really give a shit if you ever did get ahold of my website, you can't stop me. Call the cops, cut me off, I don't care anymore. I stopped caring a long time ago. And if you do get a hold of this website I'd just move and slap a password on it..so YOU could never read it again. Maybe I am being a bit harsh, and I know I am, but you try being locked inside your house, clawing at the windows and hearing what a great time all your friends are having. People in prison have it so much better, they don't have to hear the constant goings-on's with all the free people, enjoying their freedom..even though they are, if not more, guilty than yourself. Like I said, this is all bullshit, pure ludacrious, demented bullshit. Finals are comming up, I'm stressing out, but not that bad, and all I get it constant dissaproval for every fucking thing I do. And they think it's a chemical imbalance...
Listening : Thursday - Understanding In A Car Crash |
Listening : Thursday - Understanding In A Car Crash