I am so sick of all of this. Why am I always the one betrayed by my friends? Amanda called me just now an apologized for being so shitty towards me lately. Thanks Amanda, and just to let you know, anything that's been posted about you is in spite and jealousy of your good looks. I appreciate her apology and it means a lot to me. But not enough. It just make sense that all my friends would just leave me. I honestly don't know what the point of keeping this blog anymore. Nobody reads it, it's not popular and none of my 'friends' give a shit about reading it. Typical. Sometimes I wonder if I'm too cynical for my own good. I'm really contemplating moving away. No one would miss me that much. Maybe starting over would be the best thing I could do. I could get away from Bakersfield and away from my old life. Anyone with ideas post in the comments..but not like anyone was going to anyway. I'm becoming way too whiny. I just need to suck it up..
I don't think people realize how bad they hurt me. I don't think they understand the impact they have on me. Because if half the people knew how bad they have fucked me up, I wonder if it would matter to them. Yes, this is directed at Katie and a few others. I want you to know you hurt me bad. You hurt me bad.
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