I don't know what is wrong with me lately, but it seems like every single thing angers me to the point of violence. Last night, at court I was in a fit of RAGE when this guy who helped the judge make her decision would not shutup. He kept going on and on about all the things we did when we were up on the stand and talking to the witnesses. And it's not because I can't take honest, friendly critism, it's just that the guy would keep repeating the same things over and over, and was A COMPLETE dick about it. Then, the defense attorney who did closing for them just SCREAMED her entire closing, right infront of us, in our faces. If I didn't already have a headache, this stupid bitch gave me one. Even now I'm getting pissed about it. But today...was the worse. Michael and Mary Charlotte were talking about the case in Spanish, with Hans and myself. Mary Charlotte told me the Judge was getting anoyyed with me, and that I just ignored her objection sustainment, which the funny part is, is that Hans and I both didn't remember that happening. So we got in a huge debate about it, and I about lost it. Hans told me to chill out, but I was getting so pissed, because I didn't remember, Hans didn't remember, Micheal just automatically agrees with MC and and MC was just giggling about it..I almost slapped her. I wanted to..so bad. She annoys the fuck out of me, "Look at me, my name is Mary Charlotte, I think I'm soo smart, I'm every teachers pet, and I kiss girls but I lie about it!! *giggle*". Give it up already Mary Charlotte, you're not fooling anyone we all know you just bullshit you way to getting good grades and you think you're better than everyone. How dare you say you're smarter than Sadie, at least she doesn't kiss ass to get where she is. Plus, she doesn't lie about her true sexuality. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against gays and lesbians, but that fact that you LIE about it, and that people have CAUGHT you doing it, why are you so ashamed of your sexuality? It's not like you're fooling anyone with the 'straight' act. Like you could get a guy anyway.
Wow, that turned into more of a rant than intended, but it feels good to get out of my system. But I still have more to bitch about. My dad is in this mood and the fact that I hate him, doesn't help the situation anyway. My friend's can't believe how much I disrespect my dad, and other people as well but, I use to be the biggest daddy's girl in existence. But the first fucking day he hit me, was the LAST time. All my respect went out the window when he tried to 'teach me a lesson for backtalking' and I couldn't give a fuck less if he dropped dead this very second. He's never hit me again, and if he EVER tries it again, I'll fight back just like I did last time. But worse. Hell hath no fury worse than my anger towards him. But back to my story, he was giving me the same old fucking lecture he tells me every fucking day. The same lecture about how grades mean everything and that I'm going to go nowhere in life and good luck out there in the real world and good luck if I ever find a guy. Hmm..and they WONDER why I'm depressed? THEY WONDER what they could have done WRONG? THEY WONDER WHY THE HELL I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF BEFORE!?! Oh..hmm..I don't know... could it be because you guys don't know how to raise a daughter properly?? Maybe that's the reason why I'm a failure, you're failures as being parents. It's not your fault really, but it is your fault that you continue to be the bullshit parents you are.
Uh.. I think that rant went a little further on that it needed to be. Ho hum. But in other news my boss Andy, gave me GREAT news. I get to see Adema for free ;D So I'm happy. Any of you cutie patooties wanna come with me? Email me ;D Haha..like anyone is gonna take me up on that offer..
Listening : Something Corporate - if U c Jordan